Up and down, back and forth
Thoughts so fast; the life of me is so up and down it”s crazy.
I know you can”t understand but don”t you see it scares me?
I”m not who I want to be
I don”t think what I want
It”s so controlling, filling my mind
I don”t see what I can do anymore
I”m lost in this disease
I”m just who it makes me.
No control! It hurts
I just want to go back to who I was, who I am
The problem is I don”t remember who that was