I am mad and very sad that
I do not know how to to
communicate my anger
in an appropriate way
In my moments of anger
I just shut down and retreat
into my shell
I want to scream and lash
out but I just stuff it all down
my stomach is churning
my heart skips a beat
my mind is racing
I”m so sick of retreating
it feels like I”m bleeding
In my head I am yelling
and lately it connects with
my lips to say those ugly
words that I must stop
the anger and pain before
I bleed to death