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Title: today is forever
Date Submitted: 3/22/2007
Email: crimson_surrender@hotmail.com

 
Poem: I’ve fallen from this world. Not so much away, as back from. I slipped so slowly I did not see, and today I woke to gray senses. Endless static, mumbled sounds through unhearing ears; colours faded, edges blurred, and a voice quiet without words to say could it even cry.

I had slipped back from this world and rode despair to my bed. Curtains closed, enclosing me in my room, in my own darkness, hiding from the darkness of the world. Sleeping again and again, hoping to open eyes and curtains each time to a different life.

I have fallen back from the world. It’s like there’s a barrier, an invisible and thick, heavy, slow, sticky fog. It’s like I’m looking into the distance, struggling to be able to see. Yet the struggle is gone, the fight has fled from me. It’s as though I’m so hidden, and pulled back inside myself (where it feels safe but I know it’s not). I’ve withdrawn so far that everything else feels so far away and so far beyond comprehension. And me, irrelevant and unknown and unseen, to it.
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